28/07: Viva Las Vegas
Well, I just returned from my friend's bachelor party in Las Vegas. I left right after taking my big exam, so I was in the right mind set to party. Which mostly meant strippers.
I spent about $500 the first night in the strip club. I fell in love with one of them, and she put my phone number into her phone. I think it was just so she coult text me later and try to get more money, I texted her when I got back to Miami (she said she lives in Miami and only goes to Vega for the summers) but she never replied, so that answers that question. She had nice feet which she rubbed all over my face though :)
I met up with a lady who does clips and she did a foot worship one with me.
That was a great time too. I didn't gamble or anything though. I did see all the major sights. The bachelorette party was in Vegas too, and one of the girls is a friend of mine that takes candid pictures of the other girls feet for me. She is awesome like that :)
It's good to be back home though, before I spent all my money.
I spent about $500 the first night in the strip club. I fell in love with one of them, and she put my phone number into her phone. I think it was just so she coult text me later and try to get more money, I texted her when I got back to Miami (she said she lives in Miami and only goes to Vega for the summers) but she never replied, so that answers that question. She had nice feet which she rubbed all over my face though :)
I met up with a lady who does clips and she did a foot worship one with me.
That was a great time too. I didn't gamble or anything though. I did see all the major sights. The bachelorette party was in Vegas too, and one of the girls is a friend of mine that takes candid pictures of the other girls feet for me. She is awesome like that :)
It's good to be back home though, before I spent all my money.
So, let's say there is a dog. Well, a puppy. The kind that would always sniff around at its owner's feet and try to hump her leg.
Normally he is a loyal, happy, obedient puppy. Sometimes he gets a hold of a sandal or two and needs to get reprimanded, but normally he's a good dog.
The training process is a bit of a chore. Some days seem to go better than others. Overall he's learned a few tricks.
Now imagine one day, when commanded to roll over, he refuses. Normally he performs this trick eagerly and happily. Rolls right over like a log. But this time, he just doesn't want to.
Instead, he puts his tail between his legs and lowers is head and ears, but still refuses to roll. He might even bark. He would never dream of biting though.
What would that mean, if anything? Would you try again tomorrow? Is he a bad dog? Would the image of the loyal and obedient friend be marred?
It's mostly likely just a dumb dog that doesn't know what it wants.
Normally he is a loyal, happy, obedient puppy. Sometimes he gets a hold of a sandal or two and needs to get reprimanded, but normally he's a good dog.
The training process is a bit of a chore. Some days seem to go better than others. Overall he's learned a few tricks.
Now imagine one day, when commanded to roll over, he refuses. Normally he performs this trick eagerly and happily. Rolls right over like a log. But this time, he just doesn't want to.
Instead, he puts his tail between his legs and lowers is head and ears, but still refuses to roll. He might even bark. He would never dream of biting though.
What would that mean, if anything? Would you try again tomorrow? Is he a bad dog? Would the image of the loyal and obedient friend be marred?
It's mostly likely just a dumb dog that doesn't know what it wants.
Yesterday I went to see a friend who was in town that I hadn't seen in almost 2 years. She was actually my first girlfriend back in 11th grade of high school, 11 years ago. Over the last 2 years she has also had a boyfriend.
At the end of the day, before I left, I told her I have a collection of most of my friend's feet, but amazingly I didn't have any (good) ones of hers and I asked if I could remedy that. She was hesitant but said ok. I took 6 pictures of her feet with my phone. I also asked her to the back yard for some better lighting. I placed her feet on my knee and took the pictures, and after dusting her soles off a bit I decided to massage them a bit.
"No, I feel like it's cheating!"
"Tell me to stop" I said. She didn't say anything. So I continue massaging her feet.
After about 5 seconds she said "Oh, I had forgotten how good you were"
It was a bit thrilling for me. I was tempted to kiss them, but decided not to go that far. I did get excited though massaging another guy's girlfriend's feet while she complimented me on how good I did it, while she felt like she was cheating on him. I imagine that is as close to being a "bull" as I can get! I masturbated to her foot pictures when I got home to finish off the "bull fantasy."
At the end of the day, before I left, I told her I have a collection of most of my friend's feet, but amazingly I didn't have any (good) ones of hers and I asked if I could remedy that. She was hesitant but said ok. I took 6 pictures of her feet with my phone. I also asked her to the back yard for some better lighting. I placed her feet on my knee and took the pictures, and after dusting her soles off a bit I decided to massage them a bit.
"No, I feel like it's cheating!"
"Tell me to stop" I said. She didn't say anything. So I continue massaging her feet.
After about 5 seconds she said "Oh, I had forgotten how good you were"
It was a bit thrilling for me. I was tempted to kiss them, but decided not to go that far. I did get excited though massaging another guy's girlfriend's feet while she complimented me on how good I did it, while she felt like she was cheating on him. I imagine that is as close to being a "bull" as I can get! I masturbated to her foot pictures when I got home to finish off the "bull fantasy."
01/05: Flood
There's probably something wrong with me. Oh, well, OK there definitely is, but that's not what I mean this time. I mean something actually wrong.
It's been over 3 years since I last saw her in person. Then we both started med school. We talked online sometimes, and we had a big argument. Sometimes I think she did it on purpose, to make it easier for us to forget.
And I thought I did, mostly.
She messaged me again today. She's messaged me more this year than in the entire last 3 years combined. It's good to be friendly again. To know she doesn't hate me. But just when I thought I could swim, I drown in the flood of memories. Talking with her I have these sudden urges to try to make her laugh again. Like I used to. It was a nice laugh.
I know this make me look weak. Maybe I am. Maybe it would be easier if the messages didn't come when I have been sitting at my computer alone for some time. Maybe if I haven't only had 1 partner since her, and no girlfriends it would be easier.
On the other hand, I realize I have dodged a bullet. The hot girl that was in my A&E rotation has been dating my friend from the same rotation for about 5 months now. I see the pointless arguments sometimes over the dumbest things. I realize how good it is to be single, being allowed to be selfish.
Being along now, means not losing anyone later.
I do miss the warm body in the bed though. I do miss having someone to make laugh, that made me want to impress, that made me work harder to be a better person.
It's been over 3 years since I last saw her in person. Then we both started med school. We talked online sometimes, and we had a big argument. Sometimes I think she did it on purpose, to make it easier for us to forget.
And I thought I did, mostly.
She messaged me again today. She's messaged me more this year than in the entire last 3 years combined. It's good to be friendly again. To know she doesn't hate me. But just when I thought I could swim, I drown in the flood of memories. Talking with her I have these sudden urges to try to make her laugh again. Like I used to. It was a nice laugh.
I know this make me look weak. Maybe I am. Maybe it would be easier if the messages didn't come when I have been sitting at my computer alone for some time. Maybe if I haven't only had 1 partner since her, and no girlfriends it would be easier.
On the other hand, I realize I have dodged a bullet. The hot girl that was in my A&E rotation has been dating my friend from the same rotation for about 5 months now. I see the pointless arguments sometimes over the dumbest things. I realize how good it is to be single, being allowed to be selfish.
Being along now, means not losing anyone later.
I do miss the warm body in the bed though. I do miss having someone to make laugh, that made me want to impress, that made me work harder to be a better person.
10/04: Sigh
No matter how many times I remind myself of this, I can't stop playing it over in my head.
05/04: Someday in autum
I messaged an old friend yesterday. We went to school together but she failed some classes and got left behind a term.
We exchanged some messages and she gave me her number and I called her today.
We caught up on some stuff, told each other what's been new in our lives.
I asked when she would be back in this part of the country. She said May.
I am going back down to Miami in May, but I'll be back up here in September.
She asked me if I had a girlfriend.
I said No, and said not only that but I haven't had sex since the time we did it, 2 1/2 years ago.
She said I'd only have to wait until September.
We exchanged some messages and she gave me her number and I called her today.
We caught up on some stuff, told each other what's been new in our lives.
I asked when she would be back in this part of the country. She said May.
I am going back down to Miami in May, but I'll be back up here in September.
She asked me if I had a girlfriend.
I said No, and said not only that but I haven't had sex since the time we did it, 2 1/2 years ago.
She said I'd only have to wait until September.
04/04: Role Reversal
Last night I was out for a friend's birthday. We went to a bar and usually I hate that environment. I also just had water the whole night. Most of the people that came were her old friends from college but some, like me, were from med school and so there were a few mutual friends. One of whom brought her very attractive but engaged friend with her. I spent almost the entire night talking with her. It really was innocent, I think. At least on her end. It really almost felt like flirting, and god knows if given half the chance I would have done things to her, fiance be damned.
But it did remind me a lot of one of the members here who that very night was out being naughty while married. I began to feel a bit like one of those other guys, not the role I normally take. But I think this is only because she wasn't ever going to do anything with me, so I felt no pressure.
I also noticed I cannot distinguish "niceness" from "flirting" if I think the woman is attractive. Or probably even if I don't.
But it did remind me a lot of one of the members here who that very night was out being naughty while married. I began to feel a bit like one of those other guys, not the role I normally take. But I think this is only because she wasn't ever going to do anything with me, so I felt no pressure.
I also noticed I cannot distinguish "niceness" from "flirting" if I think the woman is attractive. Or probably even if I don't.
02/04: Spring
Ah, Spring must be in the air. The bitter weight of winter has fallen away.
Today I saw my first (and actually multiple) sandal wearing young lady. Toes wiggling in the nice brisk wind.
Ahh.
It almost doesn't matter though since I am heading back to Miami in 5 weeks anyway, and will stay there 3 months.
Oh well. Nice to have the spring feeties back.
Today I saw my first (and actually multiple) sandal wearing young lady. Toes wiggling in the nice brisk wind.
Ahh.
It almost doesn't matter though since I am heading back to Miami in 5 weeks anyway, and will stay there 3 months.
Oh well. Nice to have the spring feeties back.
11/02: Modeling
I sometimes feel privileged or special to witness something that I know no one else saw. A funny or interesting moment that when I look around realize everyone is too busy with their lives to have noticed.
I was riding on the train back from the psychiatric outpatient clinic today and a mother with her 2 daughters came in and sat across from me. Her little one was maybe 3 years old and in a stroller. The mother and older daughter talked while the other few passengers stared at the floor fighting sleep or reading the newspaper.
The 3 year old was looking and an older Asian man sitting near her who began to rub his face. Then she started rubbing her face, holding her hands up in a "peek-a-boo" fashion, peeking at him between her fingers. Then the Asian man let out a big yawn. The little girl watch and yawned with him.
As she looked around and must have seen the people holding on to the metal poles because from her stroller she reached over and held the pole near her. She stayed like that for much of the ride and I thought it was the most adorable thing to have watched! I could see her brain assimilating all this information through her modeling behaviors.
Her mother and sister were still chatting and didn't notice any of it.
I walked home from the station in the snow, looking forward to starting a pediatrics residency next year.
I was riding on the train back from the psychiatric outpatient clinic today and a mother with her 2 daughters came in and sat across from me. Her little one was maybe 3 years old and in a stroller. The mother and older daughter talked while the other few passengers stared at the floor fighting sleep or reading the newspaper.
The 3 year old was looking and an older Asian man sitting near her who began to rub his face. Then she started rubbing her face, holding her hands up in a "peek-a-boo" fashion, peeking at him between her fingers. Then the Asian man let out a big yawn. The little girl watch and yawned with him.
As she looked around and must have seen the people holding on to the metal poles because from her stroller she reached over and held the pole near her. She stayed like that for much of the ride and I thought it was the most adorable thing to have watched! I could see her brain assimilating all this information through her modeling behaviors.
Her mother and sister were still chatting and didn't notice any of it.
I walked home from the station in the snow, looking forward to starting a pediatrics residency next year.
29/01: Se habla espanol
A lady I talk to online, that is not a member of this site, has been having me do some tasks and humiliating my penis recently. She wanted me to get some Magnum XL condoms and try them on so she could have a laugh at how loose they look on me. So I went to go buy some.
Meanwhile, I suffered from a medical ailment that needed some temporary relief. I thought, ok, I'll kill two birds with one stone at the pharmacy. So there I was, standing in line with a box of Magnum XL condoms and a tube of preparation H anti-hemorrhoidal! I wonder what they thought I would be up to later on that night! ;)
And now a completely unrelated story. I just got home from getting a haircut. As I posted before, I go to a very loud and enjoyable barber shop with lots of music and singing. While getting my haircut a man walked up to my barber and in Spanish asked how long he would be. I think he probably came for him specifically and if would be too long he would come back another time. He then asked, in spanish, if he had to do my beard too. "Yes, I think so" he replies. Then I decide to answer in spanish and clarify that I want him to trim it down, but doesn't have to shave me.
It seems I look more Middle Eastern than Hispanic because they began laughing loudly and were quite taken aback when they learned I spoke Spanish! He wanted to know if I go around and pretend I can't speak so that I could hear what people really thought.
He learned his lesson he said, and to always be careful what you say, you never know who is listening. I wasn't trying to fool anyone though, I just use English as default.
Anyway, he did a good job :)
Meanwhile, I suffered from a medical ailment that needed some temporary relief. I thought, ok, I'll kill two birds with one stone at the pharmacy. So there I was, standing in line with a box of Magnum XL condoms and a tube of preparation H anti-hemorrhoidal! I wonder what they thought I would be up to later on that night! ;)
And now a completely unrelated story. I just got home from getting a haircut. As I posted before, I go to a very loud and enjoyable barber shop with lots of music and singing. While getting my haircut a man walked up to my barber and in Spanish asked how long he would be. I think he probably came for him specifically and if would be too long he would come back another time. He then asked, in spanish, if he had to do my beard too. "Yes, I think so" he replies. Then I decide to answer in spanish and clarify that I want him to trim it down, but doesn't have to shave me.
It seems I look more Middle Eastern than Hispanic because they began laughing loudly and were quite taken aback when they learned I spoke Spanish! He wanted to know if I go around and pretend I can't speak so that I could hear what people really thought.
He learned his lesson he said, and to always be careful what you say, you never know who is listening. I wasn't trying to fool anyone though, I just use English as default.
Anyway, he did a good job :)